Hello again, all! I hope you are having a beautiful weekend.
Well, here I am, three weeks after my last post and what a revelation these three weeks have been. For what seems like forever, I have been deeply hurt by two family members; one who stabbed my in the back and told out and out lies about me and one who has done nothing but belittle and criticize me.This coupled with the CFS and FM made me very angry and very dark for years. Even after I started speaking with a Stephen Minister for a year-and-a- half, something still wasn’t right. While I began to understand why the burden of CFS was put upon me by my Maker (to turn it into something good)I still wasn’t truly happy. I lacked the joy I should have been feeling knowing that the Lord was always with me and was doing good things with my life. Then I figured it out. I couldn’t be joyful until I let go of the negativity in my life, and that negativity was my family situation. I was only sad when I thought about that, and I realized I couldn’t do what I was called to do effectively with sadness over something I had no control over hanging over my head. I had to stop living in the past and move forward COMPLETELY. I couldn’t be somewhere in both the past and the present and have a happy future. It was either one or the other, and I knew what I had to do. I had to move forward and do what God has called me to do, and you know, it was the strangest thing. It was so easy! I just let go completely, almost with no effort at all! Since I’ve never been the type to let go of anything, this had to be God working in my life. I can now completely move forward with God given ease and complete my assignment, whatever that is. Only He knows and now I can hear Him with no background noise in my mind and no distractions.
Well, that’s about all my little brain can come up with right now. I grant you all a wonderful weekend!